As still as seeing eyes
from the smoke
y haze as the wind is
loud as the edge
is loud and as sharp
as long as I
walk along it.
Down to nothing in particular
from the midday sun
worth staring at
in shadows as in life
where I have the best
of things
or maybe just not the worst
Wednesday, January 13, 2016
Infinite sides to every story
Imagine you arrive at your destination late at night. Your
destination, you thought, is a castle. But search as you might when you ’arrive’,
you find no turrets, no towers, nothing that looks like a castle. No matter
which path you take – and you take many, this way and that - you get neither
closer nor further away. You begin to wonder and are disappointed by the
thought that the ‘castle’ is just the loose collection of buildings you are in.
What would you do? How would you cope? What if the ‘castle’ is
not a castle but your dreams and goals, and the journey to ‘arrive’, your
assumption that the years are well spent, planning, doing and hopefully getting.
You expect a beginning, middle and end, but it turns out: there is only a
middle.
This is the disconcerting world Kafka creates in The Castle
and his character K responds with an odd mix of emotions that do not obviously
fit together. But that’s not the point. The point is that their meandering
logic lead to an irrational defiance, a determination to see things through to
the end, though he doesn’t even know what ‘things’ might refer to.
‘...they knew all about him at the Castle…they had weighed up the strengths and weaknesses and were ready to do battle with a smile. On the other hand… it showed that they underrated him... And if they thought they could keep him in a constant state of terror with this lofty acknowledgement… they were mistaken.’
It’s a hard book to read. The experience of reading it is
like K’s fraught search. He finds nothing except that there are infinite sides to
the story. Every character has a story to tell which sheds another, different light
on the unfathomable situation. He pulls
off veil after veil from its opaque face, only to reveal a more and more
complex picture, one that pushes meaningful understanding away into an
explosion of details.
Some people get bogged down in elaborate interpretations. In
the end though I don’t think it’s hard to unravel, it’s just hard to accept.
Impossible in fact. The fragmentary world of The Castle where there is only a ‘middle’
is a lot more realistic than our insistence that things should make sense, that
we should be able to understand and
therefore have something to strive for, or hope for or search for. This means
we prefer only to see one version of events out of an infinite sided circle and
so, our grip on it is fragile - dangerously stretched by every other side that
comes into view. We react to this threat with rage. We hold on.
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